Supporting one another in eating disorder recovery

@cmmusiclover Hi cmmusiclover, thank you for opening our first discussion! No, it's not an error, this is just one of our newer communities that hasn't had any post yet.  I'm sorry you're going through a hard time right now with your ED, but it's great that you're actively looking for help and support! Let me tag some other members in our community who can possibly share with you.

Hi everyone, welcome to our eating disorders group! How have you been doing? How do you cope when you feel yourself relapsing into your ED behaviors? Is there someone you turn to or something that helps you overcome it? 
@Zohetmart‍ @Pshaun‍ @lovelychaos‍ @Ximena1218‍ @Kwarpenburg‍ @NaReyes‍ @Terrance‍ @k.v.graff‍ @KwM0718‍ @Cookiecaper2‍ @sky339‍ @Rosie_15‍ 

Feel free to use this space to share your thoughts, experiences, and most especially support with one another!

Take care,
Courtney

So I know I probably should want to recover from Anorexia but I dont. I want to just keep going and get skinnier because I just weigh too much. How do I convince myself to stop

@cmmusiclover Hi, ugh I completely know what you're talking about. It's been REALLY hard for me too and I've been fighting myself and trying to ignore my urges. Especially since all the COVID stuff started and being stuck at home more. I guess there are fewer distractions and i'm stressed and I have fewer places to go so the voices and thoughts are coming back.

@Ashlee Have you been able to see someone about it or get some help? I know for me seeing a therapist really helped me realize what was behind my anorexia and what I was doing to myself. I'd been doing better for a while so I haven't seen mine in a while but I'm thinking I need to go back.

@KatieG I have been hospitalized two times due to other things but one of the times the staff noticed but all they did was threaten to put a feeding tube in. My parents are in denial because they dont want to believe i have an actual problem.

@Ashlee Ugh no, I'm so sorry... I HATE it when people don't take ED seriously. ESPECIALLY when it's doctors or other healthcare people. They should know. And that's so frustrating about your parents. mine had a hard time understanding it too. 

@KatieG Ive honestly given up on having anyone so i guess it doesnt matter

On the other end.  I need to loose a bunch of weight.

Since I've retired I don't do much and really have no desire to.

Please remember you are beautiful.   Food is not the enemy.  

Tw

I’m new here, and am struggling with keeping my food down. My mom had the same condition for years but doesn’t really seem to care that I can’t keep my food down on my own, I purge every time I eat, when I told her her reply was “well stop. Duh” I told her I try but it’s hard and she replied with “it’s easy” but it’s really hard for me. I have a wonderful fiancé who is trying to help but I’m not sure I can do it with his support alone, and no counselor I’ve been to has helped they kept saying I need to focus on other things first but I don’t want my baby seeing her mommy like this anymore 

For years I've restricted how much I intake and I count calories. I also yo yo diet so when I get to my low weight at some point I lessen up and gain some just to restrict and count again. It never ends. It's just automatic for me. I've been like this for almost 40 years and will probably never get rid of it. When people comment on my weight I don't know what they see. 

Is there any cure for this? I feel like a bunch of you have said, that I yo you around, or I get to a good place mentally, only to eventually backslide. I feel like sometimes there's no hope. I can't afford therapy right now and I don't want to be in therapy for the rest of my life.