Feeling like an emotional monster

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To clarify i have 2 friends and haven't told many people who i really am. I am a monster who causes pain and misery. The last three weeks of my life I've relived everyday of the 29 years of my life. I ruined my relationship with a person who tried to pull me out the dark. She took me in I was broken, knowing my scars and my struggles she tried to give me hope. I watched my brother pass away 5 and half years ago. He committed suicide. I was in the other room I had to see it all. I dont blame him we had horrible childhoods. I used this depression as a crutch and became a evil person. Pushed everyone away from me but the woman who gave me everything but eventually became hostile towards her. I broke her down I put all my pain on her with anger. She left me after 5 years im surprised she put up with me so long, i deserve it. I find myself alone again drowing in a hole of misery i put myself here. I dont know telling strangers will help but its a start. I don't wanna be the person i am anymore. I depressed lonely monster. No need to reply to this not much to say im suffering and its my fault

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02/28/2020 at 4:07 PM

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@Dmobb29 Hello Dmobb29, thank you for your message. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. In our health magazine we have a number of member interviews of people living with severe depression. Here's a selection of them that I think you might find interesting:

Testimonials - Depression

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Feeling like an emotional monster https://www.carenity.us/forum/other-discussions/living-with-depression/emotional-monster-1575 2020-02-28 16:07:55

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02/28/2020 at 8:50 PM

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@Dmobb29‍ hey dude listen i completely understand i know im "still a kid" but i ruin love the same way you do, i get scared that there gonna hurt me and i end up hurting both of us. for some reason i allways do this, its not that i dont trust the guy its just that either i fell like i have to give myself to him sexually or i he doesnt understand me, and what i went through growing up 2 guys i dated to me what went through was no big deal, morel of the story i got pissed and asked him if it ever happened to him(knowing it didnt), he said no. so i flipped out and left him, i loved him ALOT i just didnt want to deal with the fact that he would never understand me and that that would lead to more complications further along the line.

Feeling like an emotional monster https://www.carenity.us/forum/other-discussions/living-with-depression/emotional-monster-1575 2020-02-28 20:50:31

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