I've lost all drive and hope

You are doing the right thing. This is a place where you can write about how you feel. Thats always a first step. I am not a professional, but I do understand. I too am struggling with my poor life choices. I have lost everything - for the 4th time in my life even - due to my mental health issues. I am hoping to use this new year and new decade to put the past behind me and move forward, but my brain always feels like there is a perpetual game of ping pong going on inside my head with thoughts and memories and words and voices and the pain in my heart never goes away. I am so lost and at my age that's an even scarier place to be. I can't seem to shake these thoughts no matter what I do. I am exhausted with myself. I don't know what to do anymore or where to go from here. So, I get it. I'm sure others here do too. I hope knowing that others understand helps you. 

You can write about anything you're comfortable with, or, if you read comments from someone who you think may be good to talk to, you can add them as a friend and/or private message them. I wish you well.

Im currently in the same situation and im lost on wtd everyone thinks im weak. Or im lying when i say id rather die then keep living because my life has been more pain then joy. From molestation to abuse all my life. To being used up till i have nothing and am.now homeless cause of my family odk what tdk. I feel useless its easy for others to say i have a purpose but how so when i can not see it i need help and i dont know what to do with out health insurance to pay cause i am broke. Im losong everyone that loves me because of my.mental health issues 

Idk where even start I feel like I am doing so many things wrong. My depression has made me so lost and alone idk how to even begin fixing what I have broken. Just wish I had better option on how to fix it.

I understand I just got out of an abusive relationship after going back 5 times that cost me alot of things: alot of my belongings, my car, my job and now I'm living with my family. I'm still suffering from anxiety and trust issues that I think might be a lifelong thing after that intense relationship. I feel lost, alone, guilty, worthless, angry, sad, shame, and stuck. My dogs are the only things getting me out of bed right now. I just want to drink myself into oblivion and disappear. Although I know I did the right thing by getting out and having a chance to start over I know that my parents are disappointed. My depression and impulsiveness gets me into situations like this all the time. Starting over is hard. I see alot of my friends that are my age that are killing it at life and I'm basically just HERE right now taking up space. 

I understand that. I was in abuse relationship for to long. Now I'm living with family, no job. My ex has made out to people we know that , I was the one. Just because they found someone else's, didn't want our family to know it was her.