Need to Vent/Need Some Positive Vibes

This is definitely me! I wasn’t even a bridesmaid in my best friends wedding because I was so inconsistent and bad with communicating when I’m depressed, but that’s when you need people to understand the most... and I think people who haven’t experienced it just don’t get it unfortunately. However, there are people that do and people that love you no matter what!!! My dogs definitely cheer me up I talk to them like people 

@Vlrose07 Awe they're adorable! I talk to my pets like they're people too! 

It is tough when people seem to desert us when we need them the most.  I have been through that for years. My children are in their late 40's and my oldest just turned 50.  They have all had their own issues and have not treated me well at all.  There is no reason for this and there have been problems between all of them which reflect back on me.  I am so isolated and alone during this pandemic and know I hoped for better from them for much too long.  It will never come and I am concerned with being so isolated during the winter.  There is truly no one that cares what happens to me and that is a strange and horrible realization.  

On a lighter note, I do have a cat named Sari and since I have been working from home since March she is my buddy.  I am concerned about her though because she is showing symptoms of diabetes or kidney problems and I need to bring her to a vet.  She was an abused cat that I got from the shelter and she will not get into the carrier and refuses to be held or guided in. It has made getting her care very difficult as I am not a young person myself. I will solve this I know that.  I am so sorry your cat died.  After a period of mourning you may feel like getting another one for company.  It might be a good time to think about what kind you would like.  

Please don't allow your friends actions hurt you too badly.  It is much more of a reflection on them than you. Nobody has a clean home all the time and we all have our quiet times and have a right to them.  A good friend will care enough to just be there with you without expectation. Sometimes all we need is company without a conversation or 'doing' anything spectacular.  Take care of you.  You are fine and enough just the way you are.  

I don't know if this helps any, but they now make "top loading" cat carrier's. You just open the top and drop the cat in and shut the lid quickly. I had a cat that wouldn't go in the carrier either, (before I found the top loading carrier.) I would turn the carrier on its end, and leave the door open. Then I would it the cat in feet first instead of head first. If you have to hold the cat by the scruff with one hand and hold the back feet with the other hand and in goes the cat. I apologise because I realize this isn't about the main topic, but I have some experience with difficult cats and hopefully it will help you get her to the vet. 

My problem is that I am bipolar and say things that are bad but in my mind I think it is ok but it is not ok lost all my friends because of it lost my son over it how can I fix this!

I wish I knew what my problem is then maybe I would know what to do. I have never been close to anyone, not sure why. I am 64 and still dont know. 

I, too, suffer depression.  Mine is seasonal, fall & winter.  I take a cocktail of psych meds + use full spectrum light.   All help to some extent, yet am SO awfully tired!   Unsure why.  Psych practitioner also unsure.  I have anniversaries this time of year.  My dad passed in Nov. of 2017 & mom in Dec. of 2014.  Doesn't help.     Plus covid is doing real number on the states again.

Thx for letting me vent.  Peggy

Hi. My names Kris. I’m 41. I can relate. I’ve lost a lot of “friends” like this over the years. When I’m stable I’m super funny and outgoing and great. But then when I start to spiral again....well, not so much. I start to isolate. I don’t want to but I can’t control it. I’m sure you know the feeling. I feel kinda trapped in the darkness. I also struggle with taking my meds. I know I need them but i have issues with them. So it’s a constant battle. I feel like honestly, if people are going to bail on you in the toughest times of your life...are they really your friends at all? I now have a few really great people. And when I say a few. I mean a few. 3 to be exact. My man and 2 friends that love me no matter what. Whether I’m medicated or not. Whether I’m doing ok, or a hot mess. It took me a long time to find them. My tribe I call them. But don’t settle! They are out there! Heck I’m here. If you ever need to vent. Shoot me a message! 

Hi. My names Kris. I’m 41. I can relate. I’ve lost a lot of “friends” like this over the years. When I’m stable I’m super funny and outgoing and great. But then when I start to spiral again....well, not so much. I start to isolate. I don’t want to but I can’t control it. I’m sure you know the feeling. I feel kinda trapped in the darkness. I also struggle with taking my meds. I know I need them but i have issues with them. So it’s a constant battle. I feel like honestly, if people are going to bail on you in the toughest times of your life...are they really your friends at all? I now have a few really great people. And when I say a few. I mean a few. 3 to be exact. My man and 2 friends that love me no matter what. Whether I’m medicated or not. Whether I’m doing ok, or a hot mess. It took me a long time to find them. My tribe I call them. But don’t settle! They are out there! Heck I’m here. If you ever need to vent. Shoot me a message!