I don't think I exist to anyone

I can relate. I wish I could give you some sage advice, but sadly I am in the same boat and don't know how to get out of it. I know in my case, I isolated myself intentionally because I have trouble trusting anyone. I know how important trust is in a relationship and until I can figure out how to trust others again, I'm not even going to try to get in a relationship. It's very hard though. Loneliness sucks.

The only thing I can say about your situation is that looks don't really matter. Who you are inside and how you portray yourself is far more important for attracting someone then looks. Be confident and kind to others and someone will come along who will appreciate you for that. But, I wouldn't wait for someone to approach you. How is anyone going to figure out how great a person you are on the inside if you don't approach them first? Take the initiative and make the first move.

John

If I may suggest that you either join or volunteer with a cause or event that you personally enjoy. Attend with the intent of focusing on the event, not on finding a mate. You'll be around people with similar interests and once you take the pressure of girl-hunting off yourself, the real you will start to show. Helping other people will in turn make you feel good and that will show. Promise ya. Patience, you just never know ......