When you wake up and just feel down and lonely...

Hi i to even before i get out of bed i get that terrible feeling and thinking oh no another day and night of lonelyness what helps me is keep saying god please get me trought another day i hope this helps you its not easy bye.

When dealing with depression you won't always have the ability to handle  things that seem not be a big deal to other people. 

When I wake up in the morning I'm usually fine, then as I start my morning routine of getting ready for work, that's when it sets in. 

I'm a single mother of 2 and for 14 years my life has only been about making sure they never want for anything. I'm more concerned with how they would feel to see me depressed, so I mask it when they are around.

So I don't cry or show any indication that somethings wrong even though I'm practically falling apart on the inside. And that's something that I'm trying to work on, but I don't think I can continue doing this with no support. 

Every day we wake up and start living yesterday over again, instead of looking forward to future. Sad but true. Changes start with first step,5 second of ur happy face today is better than the miserable 24 hours yesterday. There is hope! Dont u give up, if u want to talk feel free to message me everyone. You are not alone!

It happens to hit me most random times, I'm a mother so I try to keep it from showing and its been getting harder, I have all ready been known as a depressed person but I hate to say it but its been getting worse.. I been feeling like nothing, I keep telling myself I should be happy I got my son I shouldnt be this way but that doesnt help, I been feeling the urge to well.. Cut again... I been listening to a couple songs over and over again when I'm alone.. Demons in my head and anxiety by Bmike.. And I let the tears flow... But its like it's been building up.. I feel like I'm going to be always be like this and I hate that I feel like this.. I never finished my counseling bc I went up to military school (which was the last time I cut myself was there). The person that was helping me was in training so u know what that means shes probably gone now (its been 3 or 4 yrs now). Finally I decided I needed help again (yes im an adult but I still go to my mom) I tried to talk to my mom at the time bc she would be my ride and she pushed it aside and told me that I dont need help.. (She tries to understand but she can't) So weeks then months went by and I moved into my bfs place but I still feel the same way.. And stuff so little pushes me where I just want to cry.. I force myself to get up and get through the day for my son (will be a yr in December) I just feel like I'm a terribale person.. A terribale mother.. I just feel like everything is crashing down once again..

@Nicole_645 I also wake up ok for the most part and then start to crumble the minute my day starts. it's like every minute is an eternity trying to make it through. figuring out coping mechanisms to get through my day has been such a struggle, and hiding the pain is even more difficult. 

@emarotta5 I feel the same