How does depression impact your daily life?

For me its hard to do anything. Sometimes I won't shower,eat,answe the phone. I have no motivation its like I'm stuck with the thought in my head and trapped in a space not moving. It's a very lonely feeling. I get  to a point thst i just miss work. Wont call wont show up for days. I end up looking around my house and the mess builds and dishes in the sink. I judt can't do anything and i feel like i dont want to do anything. Like there is no point to anything. It is hard. My daughter shows up and forces me to do somethings at times and open the windows or get outside. 

For me depression has been very hard it's somethingthat I've been struggling with since I was younger and it's just gotten worse and worse I don't really know what this group is honestly I'm not really used to writing groups like this but I've been trying everything and so I thought maybe this would help I've been on five different depression medications and I went to a therapist but nothing seems to help sometimes I don't even want to get up in the morning I just want to sleep all day I have no motivation to live anymore which sucks because I am pregnant and I'm trying to get better for the baby but it's just so hard with everything going on my boyfriend is a recovering drug addict and I've been through so much stuff that I can't even being to recover I just I want to be happy I want this baby to be happy I just don't know what to do I don't have anybody else all my family is disconnected from me and it just sucks but maybe this group will help anyway I'm very antisocial so I don't really don't even know how to talk to people like that and sometimes being around a lot of people gives me a panic attack but I'm willing to try anything for this baby so thank you for listening and part of my story

Hello,

I Just joined this group and I must say that I am so relieved to know that it's just not all in my head. I was not sure about the symptoms that I have been experiencing, staying in the bed all day, overeating while binge watching television, walking through the junkie house from the kitchen back to the bedroom with more food, (not even hungry) feeling disgusted. The sadness along with no energy is what gets me.

I have been struggling with depression for most my life however it had not been as bad as it is now I have been fighting it for a couple months but now it's so bad I have not left my house in a week I haven't

 watch TV, or played any of my games I just seat here once in awhile I check this page, and once in awhile I will trun on some music but i am so tired of feeling miserable and my anxiety,and depression is paralyzing

Lately I’ve been feeling so alone and lost I don’t know why .. I have my kids a business good future wife but I feel like I’m bottled up and no one listens and if they try I can’t explain myself right and I start arguments or come off mean I can’t find the middle and I’ve been hiding from my feelings but it’s not working I feel even more pushed away

Hello well for me it's everything that is so hard to do. I have lost interst in everything. I don't want to do anything because I'm so tired. I drive myself crazy with the thoughts that are in my head. 

I want people around but only certain people. Others have reached out to me to go get lunch or catch up and I say yes,it makes me feel happy. But when the time comes I just want to curl into a ball and go away. 

I'm starting to think I'm going crazy cause I'm so sad and want to go out and have fun but I can't seem to find that spark. I reach out then pull back . I feel like everything is falling apart. I can't find time to breathe I can't find time eat or maybe I just don't want it cause it makes me feel guilty.

I feel the same way like I want to just cut everyone off and just try to find myself but at the The same time..who am I… and what am I doing…. I have been sitting her the last couple of nights just thinking like what am I going to do and what’s next …. I feel like it’s so hard but no one gets it … no one gets how the feeling is when u just lay in your bed under a blanket and just feel so lost and can’t help but cry about it 

For me it just makes life feel like a chore that I have to do whether I try too or not, I started doing self  harm in 3rd grade cause of  how self aware I became at a very early age and that has self awareness has never gone away, I don't see the point in self harm anymore though cause what's the point? life is just gonna get harder and I'm gonna get more depressed so what's some scars on my wrist gonna fix. My parents say I prolly started experiencing depression at such a young age because I inherited it from my gmaw, but still after years of crying and wanting to die every single day, it finally went away but not in a good way, I don't feel anything anymore. If something went wrong I already knew it was gonna go wrong days before I planned it. All my friends and teachers call me dumb and actually try to make me understand that I am, My best friend at the time said "You do know your like actually dumb right? Like I know everyone makes fun of you for it but like literally your fuckin dumb" I actually don't feel human anymore, I'm known for being the dumb funny friend that you can make fun of and it wont get to them no matter what you say, and even when I do say to stop or ill stop hanging out with you and such it doesn't matter cause I've bounced between many friend groups and im ALWAYS THE PUNCHING BAG. No matter what I do nothing goes my way I don't have anyone to rely on. I wish I had good memories to focus on but I don't life has always been nothing but sadness and it will continue to be this way. Im to scared to Kill myself  but I constantly think how much of a burden it is to be alive. Im always the one singled out of everything, I always had it worse than everyone simply just because its me, never has any reason to it, simply just because its ME and not someone els. I would rather go back to feeling sadness than literally nothing. I overthink everything cause everything goes wrong 95% of the time. Anyway I don't expect anyone to read this but if  someone does thanks for reading, hopefully it will get better but it wont.

One thing I have realized this past month is that I know it seems like it’s always raining  over my head … but u know one thing is that every once in a while the sun will pop out … and every time one door closes multiple open it’s just what we do with what’s behind those doors .. if that makes sense I worked hard to get out of crappy life cycles I was stuck in and also made some bad new cycles .. but I constantly try to push forward and try my best not to stay depressed it is hard and a constant fight .. but honestly since I’ve had this app I found myself able to let a lot of weight off my shoulders and like that people actually listen and understand what I’m going through and can relate thanks everyone 

@anthonyrosas1989 me as well I have been able to help some people if u ever need to talk I'm always here this has helped me as well . Being able to let it out without judgement and plenty of support . ❤️❤️