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God damn it!  Just as my head starts bobbing to the surface my wife was just notified that her position is being eliminated the end of the month.  Lots of PTO and severance so were ok for a few months but damnit!  Just started to cry.  

I just feel so empty and alone. My heart is broken and I long for him to touch me in anyway even just a hug but is seems like pulling teeth and his excuse every time is he has diabetes and he can't get an erection. When we first met I was married for 21 years, he is 33 and I am 52. He has spend 5 years on and off trying to get me to be with him stating that  he would make me the happiest woman in the world and treat me so well. Well I ended my loveless but stable marriage of 21 years to be with him and the first three months were incredible we couldn't get enough of each other then oops now he can't seem to get an erection or has no interest in making love. I have become a women I hate, I am insecure, needy, lonely depressed sad I mean if he doesn't give me a kiss or show me some kind of affection I fall apart and this is killing me I just want to end my life because I can't live without him but I obviously can't live with him, I just wish I could find a way to understand him and how he shows love because I feel he may never be able to offer me what I need and that scares me to death.

Adapt, Be nice and exit the relationship

Hi

I am with you. I haven't had sex in years. We are finally separated and I feel better than ever before. My nick name is the mad masturbator. LOL We also get along better. I am an open minded person and I always said "If you need to have sex with someone just be safe about it because I don't want an STD" I guess after 30 years we have grown apart, I happens......

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Hello, I'm not officially diagnosed with MS yet but there is suspicion that I have it. I guess I should first mention that I'm male, 36 years old and generally thought to be in good health. I recently had a weird reaction to the rabies vaccination that gave me a sharp head pain that persisted for over a week. By the time my neurologist scheduled an MRI, I was feeling better and even considered canceling the appointment. They ended up finding 10-15 small white matter lesions, about 0.5cm in diameter. Ever since then my life has been in a bit of a tail spin. Anxiety and depression have taken hold and I haven't even gotten all of the other tests done yet. I just got back my blood work which was all normal, showing no signs of inflammation. Even my Vitamin D levels were healthy and normal. I'm having some trouble taking comfort in that though because I know that's more telling of a current MS inflammation. I have my spinal tap scheduled in a few days and then my follow up MRI with contrast of the head and spine for next week.

In the mean time, I've just been a wreck. I know that other people go through all of this and are much stronger and better at dealing with it. Again, I don't even know for sure that I have it but I just can't stop thinking about it. I just started to get my life back together after a really bad break up with a woman I was with for almost 10 years. She had a nervous breakdown and became abusive during the last two years and I've really struggled to piece myself back together from that. This potential diagnosis just makes everything feel like it's crashing down. I feel so alone and trapped in my own fear. I just so badly wanted a second chance to get my life back together and now the future feels so lost to me. I'm just trying so hard to hang in there for these results and praying harder than I ever have before that they indicate there's nothing to worry about. But I'm so scared that it's going to go bad.

So I don't know exactly how this works but I guess I'm just gonna type and see what happens. I don't know where to start but my depression has been extremely bad lately to the point where I'm literally just sleeping the days away but still feel exhausted while I'm awake. I have no motivation to do anything anymore, and when I do it will last for maybe a month or two. I'll feel like wow maybe I'm getting better but end up right where I left off. Not to mention my social anxiety which makes me never want to leave my house it's just frustrating and I can't help but wonder if I'm always gonna have this feeling.

I am a senior citizen dealing with PTSD and chronic heart disease, third stage kidney disease, and type two diabetes.  I have basically been told my life span is short.  I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me.  I just would like to have someone to talk to..   I can't sleep at night.  I would someone to encourage me just alittle.

Best,

Brenda

@Fred l9  thank you so much, I love your message about everyone being human no matter how they identify. you made my day better and i hope you are doing well

i have 2 babies that i live and die for. i use to have terrible problems with drugs before getting pregnant with my first. i had multiple suicide attempts. till this day sometimes i get the feeling to wana hurt myself and i feel terrible for having these thoughts because i have 2 babies to be happy about but i still feel empty and sad all the time. i feel so alone all the time i let everyone else’s opinion affect how i feel on myself and in general. i don’t know what to do i wana give up but i know i cant.