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@Mich123 Talk to me

Hi I've been looking for chat sites. Now for weeks  I can find loads of dating sites but not much of just chatting. . I just really need to converse. I've struggled since 95 with this disease but it was the 1st time in my life I had a delusional episode.  I know the truth now but it ruined my life so im alone now.  I've been isolated so much since Covid.  Now im trying to pick up the pcs of my life and fight this major depression. I have no friends and my family thinks I should just snap out of It. Easy to say....I love them but they don't understand and I have a tendency to push people away...catch 22  I guess....my thoughts spin so fast its hard to make simple decisions...although I've put myself in a corner so I dont have many choices.... I guess I just need to vent. I think there Is not much help for me these days. I try hard to think positive and rewire my brain but I struggle to do so. I wish I could l could help someone else and get out of my head but my decisions lately I do not trust....its heck realizing ur mistakes. I will say a prayer for all who suffers depression and loneliness tonight. If anyone wants/needs a pen pal pls let me know. Thank you...

I'm new here, i need to talk to someone. Ive been so sad lately, i think  im realizing im not in love with my husband anymore. And the reasons make me so mad at him and sad about it. He found a cute thing i gave him from years ago, came and showed it to me. He was getting sentimental and liked the memory of it. I had made a love coupon book,  it was for valentine's.  After about 3 years- maybe that long- he tells me that valentine's is stupid, you shouldn't feel pressured into thre commercialism to give your spouse something. I went along with it for a while but now i realize it really has hurt me for soo long. I did these sweet things for him and he did nothing. So he shows the couponbook to me and i just got so mad and sad and resentful and bitter about it- like he expected me to be happy to see it. Happy to share the memories. It's not happy to me anymore, knowing he's just taken taken taken for so long. I told him why and that it was depressing  to me. He says he's changing but why don't i believe it? When i know how honest he was to tell me that valentine's  day was stupid. And he hasn't brought me the little 'im thinking of you' random gifts in years. 

@EhmeeH. 

Good morning, how long have you been married? Was he always been this way, maybe think of the reasons that you fell in love with him and married him, sometimes guys just don't get it that these little things mean a lot more than they agree, but if he's good to you and he treats you good I wouldn't give up on my relationship because of the little things just talked to him tell him that he doesn't make you feel special anymore and that that was one of the reasons that you loved him so much, I know I dated a guy that hated the commercialism of the holidays but other days he would cook for me he would help me around the house he would bring me a flower that was picked from outside and I learned that that was enough. We broke up because he started drinking a lot and I can't handle that, so I felt like that was a good reason to get out of the relationship. I wish you the best and if you need someone just to chat with I'm here good luck hope this helps.

Been married for 7 years last july. And no he wasn't like this when we first met, he 'wined and dined' me. Flowers, wine with fresh fruit and a movie . He doesn't seem to have that, in even the slightest anymore. And after a couple years married he started in with the no holidays thing. I've heard the saying, 'date her/him even after you're married.' It's not there. Not for us. Here doesn't cook or help with cooking. Lots of things. We argued the other night,  I think I finally figured out what bothers me so much and why I've lost thre feeling. He has consistently taken advantage of me in many different situations, for years, where he actually could do something, but he's just too lazy to do it, and he makes some reason why, that sounds legit enough, reasonable and logical. So brush it off, because I'm a nice person and yea sure that sounds reasonable... but its like everything, everytime i need him for almost anything. Example: I signed up for a 12 hour night running marathon, (first time ever anything race) with my two older kids, so he would be staying home with our youngest 3yo. He tried to weasel his way out of it because he wanted to game or something,  do you really have to go? I really need to get this.. I honestly don't remember exactly whathis reasons we're. I was just pissed, as months before he had agreed, yes to watch his own child. Even though the official race was rescheduled,  my friend and I still wanted to do our own. So it ended that he did keep her with him. But it was like pulling teeth. I shouldn't have to ask you to 'babysit' your own child, make arrangements with for scheduling purposes yea ok but it didn't feel like 2 parents working together.

And what makes it even harder is, he is a good person inside and out,( his family too, the best people i think ive ever met, with the way they treat others) he's always trying to be happy, great with the kids, maybe a little too strict with rules but i lack in those so we even out in that dept...and good solid morals. 

It's been so long that I've been doing it all, and for a while i still tried. Even wanted to go to counseling. He refused at the time. So another year and a half goes past, i no longer want to go to couples counseling. I think I've given up on him. And some thing in me (a very very small far far away (almost can't hear it) vulnerable voice in me says not yet.

@EhmeeH. I'ved lived with a Narcissist husband for over 45years. It doesnt sound like he is that but he has lost interest. If he wont go to couples counseling and you feel your falling out of love or have then maybe consider you going alone. You may be drifting apart and counseling for just you might help you to sort out just what you want and if you want to continue putting effort in to a Loveless marriage?

Hi, im Keyara im 22 I have been through so much that i've haven't spoken about or never healed from, or even so much as getting something off my chest. Over the years growing up I was always raised to be tough, dont cry and your supposed to be strong like all the time. For so many years that's exactly how I was and I had a wall built up this wall with people. Im not sure what it was but I know that it was easy for me to show no emotions towards anything that happened or anything ever said and did to me. I know that sounds terrible but its real life. When became a teen it was terrible the outburst, the attitude and I didnt like people at that point. Now in this point in my life I leave it all to GOD because in my mind I have no patience, no understanding, no feelings... ZILTCH!! Because if I can get the same that I give everyday with a fake smile to make sure the next is ok. Then im done with everyone, everything period. And ill continue to live in my own existence of peace.

Hello everyone my name is Courtney. I'm new here. I am looking for good conversations from people who u understand my situation. I have horrible stress, anxiety, panic attacks and depression. Over the last 2 years it has gotten worse. I had my first seizure last year on 4/20 I was told it was due to dehydration. I was under alot of stress taking care of 4 kids. I just had my son on Halloween and I have a 3&4 year old and a 8 year old. After the first seizure I was out on keppra 75mg on July 30 I had another seizure I was told it was due to stress they did not do any tests etc just upped my dose to 100mg and sent me home. I think it could have been stress related because due to covid we got evicted and lost our children to Foster care and still have not managed to get them back. A few days later on my birthday on August 2 I had my very last seizures it lasted 4-5 minutes I stopped breathing and needed CPS and rushed to the ER. I was prescribed pain medication 3 years ago due to a bad semi accident and anxiety medication. I could no longer see the doctor. I get non prescription medication to help my pain and I only take it as needed and my fiance keeps up with it incase. The ER said I overdosed because the Cop gave me narcan because the Ambulance took 12 mins to get to me. I still had the same symptoms of a seizure and foaming white out of the mouth. I was under horrible stress/anxiety that day. So CPS is worried about that and other reasons they keep bringing up even tho I'm doing everything they ask to get my children back. 2 men the father of my 2 children have not been involved and left a few months after they were born my son's father is a heroin addict and I have had to try to save him multiple times. I get not financial or physical help. My fiance my other son's father is amazing and helps and raises my kids as his own. He was laid off from work and is now doing odd jobs. I got raped at the age of 15 and had my daughter at 16 she is now 8 I never had my dad growing up and my mom was so close to my step dad and younger sister I never mattered. He was mentally sexually and physically abusive to me. Recently he committed suicide and I think he got what he deserves I had a bad childhood with them my grandma helped raise me and now she has been diagnosed with dementia. I have a fear that everyone will eventually leave me or hurt me. I have blocked out all of my past until CPS got involved and it's affecting my health and healing alot. I just want to be understood and be a better mom than my mom was to this day we don't say I love u or hug I rarely see her and am not allowed In her home as she uses every excuse. 😔😓🙏 I talk to a therapist and am prescribed clonazepam but it does not help. I feel useless and like giving up but I have always been a fighter and not easy to give up. Before my accident I was a nursing assistant and going to school to become a MA and then on to RN and due to my injuries I can't do anything like I used to it had ruined my life and happiness.

@Avasad just speak from your heart and you will let your true feelings pour out as you become more honest with your feelings and more comfortable letting your feelings out and before you know it you will feel better and like a big weight has been lifted off your chest and as time goes on you'll find out that you're able to Express yourself easier. Don't be or feel embarrassed or like you're being judged because you're not everyone is here to help if we can and we're all very understanding as we can relate to whatever you're going through or whatever you're feeling at the moment? For example I myself felt exactly like you are now and I just started sharing and I let everything out before I knew it it and it was a wonderful feeling. We all need someone to talk to or somewhere to Express our feelings and this is a safe place for that. My best suggestion is to just Express yourself as much or as little as you feel comfortable with doing and or read some of the stories here and you will see and feel what I'm trying to say? God Bless and I truly wish you all the happiness you'll need 

Hi michelle i am in a sad day and it beacuse i dont have my kids. but i am happy who i am with. and care about my man but i am sad beacuse i dont have my kids. I love my kids and my man.