Need someone to talk to/Listen to others

@Cchaison‍ please see above!! A phone number!!  @AlexisMarie‍ that is so generous and sweet of you to reach out with your number.  It’s so helpful to have a friend that understands. I may take you up on the offer. If anyone in this string is on medication there is also a great article about medication side effects and depression including suicidal thoughts. 

I saw the statistic that suicide is up 30% in the last 20 years on the news and it’s mentioned in the article.  The article is equating it to medication side effects which is one possibility as the “baby boomer” generation is aging and likely on numerous meds. I don’t know collective age groups here and I’m guessing it’s a wide range but if anyone is on medication it’s worth a look. I suffer depression too. I have numerous autoimmune diseases and take several meds and an antidepressant that has the warnings however I don’t think that’s my issue. @Cchaison‍ you mentioned your baby is 9 months old .. that’s a tough situation and I went through post partum depression .. it’s real as your hormones are going crazy going from pregnancy back to normal. Hang in there and please message me if you would like to talk also. I’m available to any of our group. And thank you again @AlexisMarie‍ ...  you have a big heart. 

I've been struggling with depression and anxiety since high school. My anxiety is manageable, but my depression is absolutely awful. I'm on a really bad week and I have no one to talk to. My boyfriend has a hard time understanding what I'm going through and my parents still think I'm just going through a phase (I'm 25, btw). I figured this might be the best place to reach out.

I’m so sorry @ErinneBell‍ , it’s a good place. I don’t often see a lot of response to my posts but if you ever need to talk please message me. 

To me it seems the world is becoming more difficult. It’s possible it’s just my point of view as I used to have a nice home, career, went back to school to get an advanced degree for “retirement “ and the rug was pulled out with a host of health issues that left me unable to work or stay in school. My MS stole my short term memory so even when I tried to go back I couldn’t memorize or organize my thoughts as my last ms lesion was in cognitive/emotional processing part of my brain. It’s lead to being on disability and dealing with depression. I feel my life is useless now. I try every day to get out of myself somehow but I get reminded that I’m worthless. Only my pets really seem to care and need me. 

So I need someone to talk to. I've been having anxiety and depression for the past 2 years now and it's all because I'm afraid about getting a job. The reason for that is because I have a speech issue and I'm terrified to talk to people. All my friends have jobs and it makes me feel like a failure. I'm to the point where I don't even want to be alive because of how terrified I am to get a job.

I hate feeling this way and just need to figure out how to get over my fears

I feel so useless, like im not good enough for anyone. I feel so stupid. My mom tells me that im stupid, ive never really took to the heart, ut when its being said so much, i just start to believe. I get told by my mom and sometimes my dad, but mostly my mom, that they dont care about me, they dont care what im gonna do with my life(cause i just graduated highschool) that I should be ashamed of myself, that since im 18 i should be out of the house. My mom recently told me that i abused her, she uses words that she doesnt know the meaning to. she has verbally abused me and ive never said anything back, because im so scared that if i do say anything, ill be kicked out of the house.

All these things really effect me. i have this exterior of being a bad bitch and dont care what people say, but behind all that, im a scared shy vulnerable girl that just wants to be accepted by her parents and be loved by them.

I use to be so religious, but i started to lose my faith. i would pray and start asking "why gos? why am i feeling this way? why do i wanna just leave this world?" and then i would just start bashing myself and say "you made a mistake god. im not suppose to be here, i just wanna leave this world and not come back." 

i really thought me and my parents were good, but it's just always temporary. i just want to be good enough for them.

Hello, my name is Noah. I am unsure of my mental state currently because I believe I am schizophrenic. I am predisposed to it on my mother’s side and believe I excerpt symptoms. I could really use help to clarify this without me being paranoid over the situation. If anybody knows who I should talk to ( preferably anonymously) please respond. Thank you

@dlannan3821 Thank You so much!!!!!!!!! That really helped me a lot!!!!♥♥♥

Rose you are not stupid. Your mom and dad might be . a parent so never put there kids down. They should build them up so they can fyi .you are great you need to try to do your best . to go to college or find something that you enjoy doing. So you can fyi away from the negative . and talk to someone about this get all your feeling out . cause it's not good to hold them in. Your parents are wrong for what they are doing .So if you can take advantage of the free rent to help get you on your feet .remember you are worth everything. And don't let them put up down .You have large beginning of your hole live make it a good one . Because you are worth it roseagca 

@roseagca I am sorry you feel this way. You do have a purpose. Don't lose your faith. We have an enemy, Satan, who is very clever - who tells us all manner of lies (and even works through other people) hoping we will give up. It is really hard when we are told by people who should love us that we don't have value, we are stupid or any number of other mean things. These people have a problem. We should never let others define who we are ... and as hard as it is, rise above it. Prove them wrong. And remember, in the eyes of God? You have value, you are everything.  

@Noah02‍ , please try and see a counselor. If you’re young and have to request this from parents and you don’t want to say why just say that you’re feeling sad and want someone to talk to ... it’s important to treat the illness. There’s nothing wrong with having mental illness. It’s just the same as any physical illness. There shouldn’t even be a different name for it because your brain is in your body therefore it’s part of your “physical” self.  If you’re really that worried about anyone knowing often there are clinics where you can get help for free. Please stay in touch.