How to express love to our care-giver

I too have had love obsessions with people especially in my 20's.  Felt like my Heart was broken beyond repair a few times.  Of course this only made my bipolar symptoms worse.  I have also struggled greatly with my self esteem.  Because of my illness I lost a lot of good friends in my 20's because they couldn't understand my behavior and delusions.  I felt bad about this because I didn't mean to hurt anyone.  And my repeated failures at school and a couple of jobs made my self esteem really low.  On the other hand at times my self esteem is unrealistically high.  And once again I think I am misunderstood and I am really great or even better than others.  I really have to keep my opinion of myself in the middle.  My faith and spirituality is the only thing that has helped me.  You shouldn't think your worse than other people or better.  You have to learn to be confident but humble.  It's always a struggle.  Daily scripture reading helps or spiritual practices.  Don't compare yourself to others, you are your own thing.  Learn to love yourself soberly.  Just don't go to extremes.  Life can really be a struggle with bipolar.  You have to search and search and find what hobbies or activities work for you.  How to live your life in the most fulfilling but healthy way.  I have been hospitalized several times because of my illness.

I struggle with this because I think my loved ones take the brunt of my bipolar disorder when I'm having an episode. When I'm having a depressive episode I get frustrated and emotional and mean and it unfortunately blows back onto my family. I used to deal with intense guilt over this and I still do to some extent, but I try to make sure that when it's all over I've apologized to everyone and that I make a commitment to take my meds and keep going to see my therapist. I'm also working on forgiving myself, which is a big project.

When your doing good talk to them tell them thank you that you love them. That way when you not good they get it cause they care about you.