How can I manage anxiety and depression?

@Sadheart it is very hard when you want those voices in your head to stop, but they just got lauder ... somethings that work for me is writing here, being listened, deep breath, and try to focus on some specific words or prayers, that way I took my kind away of those awful thoughts. Hope it helps you! 

I've recently came to realize that alot of things I held in my past dictated alot of things I've carried into my future. My wife and I are both at a rocky place where she wants to leave the marriage do to my reactions of things I've done that results from the things I felt with in my past. The thought of losing her only makes me even more empty and less of purpose and trying to not cloud me only works for a very short period of time. I have a hard time sleeping,eating  and staying focused feels like a weight on my shoulders hard to carry and overall lost in total.

I offer one on one counseling sessions for a low price through a face to face app called zoom.

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I truly feel you. I feel there's nothing good in my life. Everyone a round me think I'm good , underneath I'm hurting, I can let anyone see it, 

Hi!, is anybody here? I am having a rough day and I coudn't think of a better thing to do...days are getting harder and harder, sometimes I wonder if really I am so fuck up and bad partner (to any kind of relationship, family, love, work,etc) because I kept finding reasons why they should not love me orbe with me, bot because of them but because of me ... I wish i can run away so far and nobody find me and then finally I will feel free, finally nobody would ever have to worry about me, nobody would ever have to deal with my shit, nobody would be hurt by mu stupid actions...I have a terrible self steam and no of this is working to me, I always tell myself I just have to push a little bit more so I can make them feel good and happy no matter how I am feeling inside, but inside the battle is just the harder and harder, I guess because I don’t love myself enough, but how can I do it without sacrificing my mom or people I love...I am scare of myself because I believe I am not a good person and even I try so hard to be good I just can’t and all that energy is wasted and at the end of the day I finish doing what I was so afraid to...a new year is coming and I used to be so excited about it because I was hopping this was gonna be the year of changes, the year of better relationships, the year of a better money situation that finally would make something worth for me and my life, the year of my moms perfect health, the year of my dreams finally start becoming true, now I am thinking is just gonna be more of the same shit and maybe even worse since I am loosing somebody very important in my life...anyways sorry for the messy I was just typing what was coming to my mind, if you read me thank you so much! It have helped a lot

@Dozer2019 

Why do you think you have no friends?  I feel that way but I know several people who are somewhat friends.  But the second they don't respond the way I think they should, I feel friendless.  Is that how you feel?

@Lorna14 I guess I don't understand this forum.  Would love to have one on one discussions.  Is that possible?