Depression: "I feel like I have lost several years of my life..."

Hello Riccardi1984, thank you for having accepted to share your story with us here on Carenity.

First of all, could you please tell us a bit more about yourself?

My name is Riccardo, I am 37 years old, I live in Montichiari and I work in a supermarket in Brescia.

When did the first symptoms of the disease appear?

When I was 31 years old, I started to suffer from depression after my 14-year relationship came to an end. I thought it would pass, but it was getting worse and worse.

How long did it take you to be diagnosed?

About two years.

What was your reaction when you got diagnosed with depression?

I didn't believe it. I thought the doctor was not competent enough. I couldn't sleep at the time, but I thought it was because I was going through a depressive episode. I thought I needed a psychologist more than a psychiatrist.

What happened after the diagnosis?

For the first few years, I didn't take my medication. After another night without sleep, I changed my attitude and started taking things seriously. I started taking my meds regularly and got back into sports, swimming and working out. Now I'm doing pretty well and I'm happy about it.

What are your treatments?

I take one Abilify injection a month and I take one gabapentin tablet a day. If I have problems with insomnia, I have to take Tavor. Fortunately, I haven't had any problems with insomnia since I've been taking my medication regularly.

Have you changed your habits to better manage your disease?

No. I do what I did before I got sick. Unfortunately, I feel like I've lost several years of my life.

How do you feel today?

My condition has improved greatly! I no longer feel tired of everything and everyone. There was a time when I had concentration problems: I couldn't even read or watch TV. Now I am back to reading and occasionally watching something on TV. I also had difficulty speaking... now I don't have those problems.

In everyday life, which symptom is the most difficult to manage?

I don't know, I am really well and serene. I work forty hours a week, do sports, read and go out with friends and family.

What is it that makes you happy?

Being able to do whatever I want and being independent.

Do you have any advice for other patients?

Of course I do! Be passionate about something and don't withdraw into yourself!

Anything else you would like to add?

To all Carenity members who are going through painful phases: stay strong!

Thank you, Riccardo1984, for sharing your story with us!