Dealing with depression and spousal abuse

@Kenzie22 Are you trapped in lockdown and going crazy?  

@castledepress Yea, but I don't really care about that, I just miss my ex lol

I know it's odd that I'm a male and feel abused.. I just felt neglected and we stopped talking to each other...she accused me of cheating on her multiple times over the last 8: years... She finally left me. All her belongings are still here in my house. It's been a month , I'm still so hurt angry and confused.. she calls here everyday and I know she's going to be horribly mean when I answer the phone but I cannot stop myself from picking up the phone . I'm alone in my mother's house where I watched her die... I just feel alone , worthless , unwanted and abused ... she literally told me she's meant every mean in hateful thing that she's ever said ... I feel so sad I just can't get back to being myself

You seem to feel like you don't deserve any better.  No judgment here btw, my relationship is a joke!  My husband is abusive also.

@Stowaway I use to do the same things to my ex, and he helped me through it. She probably has insecurity issues. She's making you pay for what others have done to her in the past. You should try to talk to her, so she can open up about it.

My husband, a surgeon, used my depression as a weapon. Then when I had my first psychotic manic episode, shortly after he kicked me out, instead of calling an ambulance he called the police. All I did was leave voicemails begging to come home. Yes hundreds. But I didn't deserve to go to jail and be convicted.

After my husband left I had a nervous break down. Now I’m living in a mobile home, beautiful, I must add.........and he moved in ANOTHER  woman at the house we to designed, in 1999!,.....((. I don’t think we’re getting a divorce it’s too complicated and stressful for me ))!,I don’t want to have another breakdown. It’s nice to have a place to come to text, and read and learn.....recently the doctor had 2 adjust my medicine again cause I was stammering and stuttering when I got upset....I also have chronic PTSD.... in 1999 I was in a motorcycle accident and had a panoramic break in my face… Which means “”every bone “”:top to bottom was broken. I lost my sense of smell, and also vision in my right eye. I also have seven pins in my leg & I had to learn how to Literally learn 2 walk again!,... it took me three months ***they told me would take nine, before I could.......but Because I’m also hypnotherapist, and had a therapeutic massage every week for an hour and a half ((because I was a massage therapist)). I also did Equine massage, “:working with horses. I had seven kids and it’s very quiet very different being on my own. Plus learning about this disease.  Thank you 4 your shares🌹

I have been through pure hell In the last few (11years) and honestly dont have a clue why i keep fighting i need anyone or anything at this point to make more sense then me PLEASE BECAUSE MY EASY OUT IS BEING DONE ALL TOGETHER 

I have been severely depressed for over 6 years now. No leaving the house, I can't work, I haven't seen my kids in six years.

I have had 2 severely abusive marriages, waited 4 years to have a relationship and my ex live in bf was a mentally abusive narcissist. He cheated on me constantly. I gave up my apartment and my car broke down on the way to live with him in Ohio. I was stuck. I stayed for a lil over a year and I couldn't take it anymore. I had a major melt down and left. I'm staying with my 2 older sons. We do not have a car and we're all unemployed. I applied for online college which I got accepted. I start the 6th. I feel like I'm in a box. I have panic attacks now all the time anything minute I feel like I'm going to have a heart attack. I need someone to talk to.