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Im 47 yrs old and can not stand the way i feel inside. I have no-one to talk to. I tried suicide yrs ago and it left me with a painful partial paralized right leg so i wont be trying that again. I now know God wiill take u when he decides. I wont be trying that shit again but i just hateee living. Nothing makes me happy. I love to be alone. I recently moved in with my niece and her crazy family. I am not happy. I just cant take the tightness and fear i feel anymore. Im on edge and the in pain with my leg from 2017 makes me depressed. Im gonna try to do self care more. Its my last attemp to shake the fear i feel. Im not in danger . My head knows better but my body is ALWAYS on high alert. I just would like to know what els i can do to shake this shit. Im on cymbalta since 2017 my suicide attempt but feel its not working anymore so i have a doc appointment in Oct to tell my doctor. I also am gonna set up out patient talk therapy. Other then all that does anyone els know how i can stop this fear and sadness?? 

I have no friends. Im in a toxic relationship where i have to take care of her all the time and I have no freedom, I cant end it because she will probably do something really bad. My parents dont understand me and I dont have a phone or any social media because of them. Im cut off from the world and feel so lonely. I just want people to hang out with and talk to. I dont know what to do and my life feels worthless. 

Feel free to add me as a friend and contact me whenever. I’m on disability so I’m literally around day or night. I was released this past week for a suicide attempt, I seriously almost died. As sick as it is, I have mixed feelings about that. So believe me, I know what it’s like to be in that really dark place. But believe it or not there IS hope. It seems so dim right now it’s nearly impossible, but it’s there. Hit me up if you want to talk. 

I just thought I needed someone to talk to, because i've been very depressed and it's like no one understands or cares. I never really show my pain to my friends, because I don't like to be victimized. It makes me feel weak and pathetic. I've been abused, bullied, beaten, and hurt. I don't care what i've gone through, because I know that if I hold on to all of that pain for the rest of my life it will only hurt me and tear me down. I will forgive those who have done me wrong, even though it kills me to do that, but i'm not going to be the victim my whole life. I want to live my life happy and free. I've been counting the years for my freedom for happiness. Most people just sit there trying to get everyone to feel sorry for them, but at the end of the day either no one really cares and they act like they do or they just don't understand. Everyone has their own life to live so why would they care about your problems? Yes, some people may actually care and that's the people you need to keep around in your life, cause they are the realest ones. I have a small group of friends that I call my family. I do know my blood family, but just because they are blood doesn't mean they are considered family. Family are the people who are there for you through the bad/good, the people who you know will have your back always, the people who you can trust, and the people who show you more love than your so say "real" family is suppose to. Those are the realest people you will ever know. What gets me through my rough times is music. I write my own lyrics in raps and songs about my feelings, emotions, and things that i've gone through or going through at the moment. It's better than trying to get everyone to feel pitty for me. I will use all my pain and anger that I have inside on my music and acting, cause that is what god has given me to be succsseful in my life. I may only be 15 years old,  but I made it through on my own and as long as I have/know myself, then I know I will make it through life.

P.s. If you find someone that you know you can put your trust in and you know they care about you, then talk to them to get some things off your chest, but don't let them give you their pitty, let them be there to get you off whatever it is and to help you improve yourself for you. Different things work for different people, so I understand if some people don't agree.

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