How can I manage anxiety and depression?

I feel like a big failure.  Nothing works out for me anymore.  I fail at everything...I am behind on all my Bill's.   I don't have a real job and I have been sleeping  on a friend's couch for a few weeks  and nothing changes.

    I am in pain.  I need to see about a hernia but I have no insurance at all.  I would love to see someone about my depression but there is no hope and no help.

      I want to go on and end it all but I am afraid I will go to hell. If I kill myself.  And I am afraid that there is help out there  , but I don't know where to look.

   I don't do drugs.   And I do not drink anymore.  I would do anything for some help ....I don't want to die    But I do not want to live like this anymore.

I have anxiety and depression I fell that my life is only getting worse I try so hard to do better but it just don’t work I’m so confused about my life I’m gay but here lately I don’t know if I’m gay or straight my sex drive is gone all I want is a to have a happy relationship long term but it never works cause I’m so stressed and confused I need help just don’t know where or how or who to get the help from 

I feel depressed because of my health issues (lupus and Crohn's) and the loneliness that they bring on. Especially with Crohn's, a lot of people are too embarrassed to even talk about it and I feel like it drives people away. I'm glad this forum is here.

Does anyone else have a chronic condition in addition to their depression? How do you deal with it?

I deal with colon and throat issues. They never say what they remove is cancerous  just growths that grow and block my air way, makes it hard to breath and to eat.  And in my colon I get growths that grow and makes it hard to pass waste so I stay overweight  

 Today is like any other day   I went back to work a week ago yesterday. I was told they would have a truck ready for me.   Wednesday came and yes they had a truck that day.

   I went and moved all my clothes and tools into the truck. And went to the body shop to get a few minor things done.   Took 2 days to get it fixed..   I was assigned  my first load on Saturday.   Pick up in Nashville at the yard and deliver it to Pennsylvania  for a delivery on Monday.

  Easy enough. Truck breaks down in ohio  I have to wait till monday to get a wrecker to come get me and take truck back to the yard to get fixed.   Waiting to see what is wrong with it and when they can fix it or if I can get into another truck today....  no news.  Still waiting in line to go into shop.  This is depressing.   Nothing seems to work out anymore.

Hang in there Adam.  I have the same problem.  Nothing works out for me either.  Reply if you want to talk.

@lupus38 I've have 5 different stomach problems,  chrons being one of them, but slight chorons. Depression and anxiety and a mother that does not believe me. And she was with me when I got results for many other health issues that I have. It really sucks....

I deal with anxiety and depression. I don’t know if ‘deal with’ is the right way to describe it. I have been hurt so much that I don’t trust anyone. I can’t handle hurt anymore so I hide myself away. I go to work take my kids to and from school and I clean. That’s it. I use to find peace in sleep but my dreams are filled with so much pain and it’s like I live my worst fears every night. So I try not to sleep. I used to weight 300 pounds I’m down to 180 and everyone says you look great but I still that gross fat girl when I look in a mirror. I hate myself. Everything about myself. nothing feels good anymore. Although I don’t think iv ever felt good. Good moments but never truly happy. 

I am currently dealing with depression and anxiety also. I went through a breakup months ago and since then my life has started falling apart. I’ve lost 3 loved ones months apart and plus I’m stuck on the hurt my ex caused me. My trust is messed up.. from promises my ex made. The last thing she said to me was “I promise I’m not leaving this time and I want to be with you” the day before she decided she never wanted to be with me again. It started out as depression and only got worse which eventually caused the anxiety. I hate being around people now. I stayed locked in my room sleeping, eating and thinking about my ex and when things were amazing.. when we were “IN LOVE”, when she loved me.