Lonely - How does it feel to be truly happy?

@qdsmith67399 

I am poor broke and lonely too.

I wish there was a way we could meet in a support group because we all need room mates.   It's cheaper for people to live together and it helps with the loneliness too.

Clare

I think u definitely need to deal with issues as they happen or it will still come back to haunt you. I was very bubbly positive always laughing not to cry. I feel with all the drama illnesses and covid all the 💩 going on this past year has forced me to deal with it now all at once. I’m not feeling bubbly anymore. I’m on anti depressants and find myself crying every other day. Venting does help. Praying helps me a lot. I let myself cry then pull myself together listen to gospel walk watch comedy to make me laugh. My dog comforts me. Now she’s a trigger cuz she’s sick too.

Hello,  I'm not sure where to start.  I've never been diagnosed with depression, but I sure can relate to all the symptoms.  I've dealt with depression since I was a teen.  I didn't know my  mother tried to take her life a few times, is this hereditary? ?  If so, been there done that.  So much to say, but little time.  In a nut shell, I've lost loved ones since 2010, starting with my 5 1/5 yr old granddaughter to 2021. April 20th, my 17 yr old granddaughter.  In between those years my parents and ex husband and my husband.   It's been a journey and yes, I know others have it worse, but this is my journey.  I don't know who to talk to, can't talk to my family because I'm the eldest and need to keep strong for them.  I also have a friend who wants to get married, but I don't care for him that way, this has just added to my sadden by having to  lose a dear friend, because he doesn't want to be.  In 2016, I almost died myself and lost my left eye sight, but by the grace of God, I recovered.  I work in the area of law, because of the trauma of it all, it took  me a long time to redeem myself.  Because I had went into shock, I couldn't perform my duties as I used to with all the loses as well as being in the hospital.  Today, it's pretty quiet, I seem to have gotten a grip on my work performance, but suffer he residue from the demoralizing I went through and the image that now follows me.  I now have my guard up and am more serious and discontented how people kick you when you are at your move weakest.  I try to maintain to see good in others, but at times it is trough.  God Bless you all.

My depression is so bad it's been over 6months crying everyday going outside has become one of the hardest things to do I have lost a lot of friends because none understands mental health. I have came to realize God is removing me from them because I'm toxic people rather walk with the perpetrating the okay with them but. Not even say hi to me I am the way I am because of them..and on top of everything else my chronic pain from my health issues make life really hard to find reasons to fight. I feel like I'm just laying here waiting to die

I just broke up with my partner 2 weeks ago and honestly I feel so hopeless and lonely at the moment we were together for more then a year I really thought he was going to marry him and have a future with him I’m so heartbroken my life doesn’t feel the same anymore I got so attached we saw each other every single day for more then a year there was never a day we didn’t see each other we texted every 3 mins for a whole year straight and now I have nothing I feel so empty and lonely I wake up crying every morning and with anxiety Im not okay I feel so off my life just isn’t the same anymore I feel so lost and lonely my heart hurts so much I get anxiety just thinking about what he’s doing and who he’s with I’m tired of feeling this way I don’t know what to do I don’t work at the moment I have so much free time all I do is cry I hate my life so fucking much at this moment My heart is completely shattered I won’t ever have that same type of love again and it breaks my heart so so much I thought he was the one we created so many memories and it’s all gone it’s all stripped out my fucking life I’ve been drinking so much lately it helps me feel much better I hate my life so much I have nothing I have no one I feel so lost nothing feels the same anymore I need help 

@DD2416 I also feel that painful depression. It's lule I am trapped in a large dark hole.

I thought that i was happy when i was married. And after the heart break of finding out she was cheating the whole time we was together. I truly know what depression is not from losing my wife. But why was i happy when we was together? Was that a lie as well? Why do people cheat? I don't understand. Now my depression is so much worse because i have no energy or will to do anything anymore. What can i do? Anybody have any ideas?

I think true happiness is when we accept that we won't always be 100% satisfied. Putting yourself down for "negative" thinking, causes us unhappiness. If we allow ourselves to feel emotions we tend to run from, then they become less scary. I say negative in quotes because feeling upset is just as important as feeling joyful. Try to see sadness as a friend instead of an enemy. I could be wrong, this is just my opinion.

@isolatedangel i feel the same! I feel so detached emotionally from everyone and everything. I feel dead inside. I feel scared and lonely all day everyday. And I feel like I don’t even know who I am. I pray these terrible feelings go away for both of us!

what does it feel like genuinely? i really wonder how it feels to enjoy life, to not get too attached to someone who’s just being friendly, or not feeling bad 24/7 i just wanna experience it once in my life i’m so tired and i need a break from everything. this is the only place i can express my feelings and not feel like i’m letting anyone down telling them that i do not want to be here much longer i’m not currently on any meds because i don’t want to depend on meds to be able to live normally but i feel like if i don’t start taking them soon i’ll do something bad i don’t want that i just want happiness, numbness even, i’d rather not feel