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Baconkisses Its hard to want to deal with the world at times. it seems like you are on the right track by recognizing your feelings. Try to breath and think of things that make you happy, ime sure if your son sees you happy, he will be too.

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Hi I’m new to this site and talking about depression in general. I honestly don’t even know if what I have would even be considered depression. I’m lonely. I don’t feel connected to the world around me. I can fake a happy appearance and I can small talk with strangers  but nothing more than that. I don’t think I know how to make the final connection for a meaningful interaction. I have people I can call a friend but I don’t think that there is a full connection. One of them once told me they think I have a barrier around me to keep people out. I don’t know how to take the barrier down. I didn’t even know I had one.

Most days I’m fine with the way my life is. I work to pay the bills. I spend money on things I want when I can.  I am not suicidal. I don’t think about hurting myself. I don’t see how either of those options would help.  What gives me pause is the thought that I don’t think I would mind dying. That being said I won’t go out of my way to die. I wouldn’t purposely put myself in a position to die. I don’t know if that thought process is normal. 

I really need to talk to someone. I’m just struggling to cope with anything and those around me aren’t very interested in hearing what I have to say.  I’m just lost and scared and need to hear someone else’s point of view or advice. 

Hi i have depression and ptsd after losing everything many many times now that im in a stable position i still feel like im going to lose everything even though that might not happen i just dont know what to do i was homeless having to steal for food now i am living in a air condition house with my own room it just feels like its fake like im fake and that i shoudnt have this like i dont deserve this like i deserve to be out on the streets again strrugling everyday just to get food.

just need some advice

@GinBlaydlock i dont know if this will help but i feel like i wouldnt mind dying but just like you i wouldnt put myself in a position to die also for those barriers i would mabye try going out of your comfert zone and ease into being a more open and social person although i am not a counsler its just something to try but not right now though cause corona

Hello I have suffered from depression since I was 22. I have been in therapy and meds since then. I suffer also from PTSD I have lived through every kind of child abuse you can imagine. To this day I cannot find any peace. I had one younger sister died of a drug overdose she also suffered but this was her way of dealing with it. I miss her so much she was the only one I can talk to. I am looking to talk to someone who may have lived somewhat in my shoes and feel better about themselves. I want to live a happier life so desperately.

For a few years now I’ve been battling anxiety and depression, I’ve talk to people who have gone to school for therapy and said I have ADHD and I’ve read that people with that have anxiety and depression also a few other things. I realized today that since I was 8-9 years old I’ve been feeling like this and I would act up and be terrible to the people I love the most when I didn’t mean too.... every night and sometimes during the day I find it difficult to stay out of my own head if that makes sense. I have thoughts telling me I’m worthless and that I’m alone which I am now at the age of 21 I only have 2 friends and my family who stuck around. I always find myself wanting to tell my dad how I feel but I don’t think he’ll understand and when I tried talking to my mom she kinda makes me feel bad for thinking negative when it’s not my fault Atleast I think it’s not. I go for car rides and listen to music to calm me down and sometimes it’s dangerous cause i think “if I go into this tree I won’t feel like this anymore” and I get scared from thinking like that and I go straight home. I’m very impulsive which leads to do bad things like send a nude once When I was 15 and people still talk about it and make me feel like shit for it. I guess I did that cause it was a distraction from the painful thoughts I was having. I can’t keep a job and I dropped out of school cause anxiety kept getting the best of me. I lost my best friend cause I would constantly block him if I got mad at him instead of just talking to him and I regret it a lot. Everyday I battle myself and I always get up from life’s beatings but I’m starting to get tired and it’s harder everyday to get back up and fight. I promised myself I wouldn’t give up in hopes for a brighter future. 

@tucker 

You shouldn't feel that way. It is a good thing you have a place. Sounds like you need to find purpose. A hobby or a job or volunteer work. 

@yiannipaps12 I used to have a problem sleeping because I couldn't turn my brain off. I ended up getting anti-depressant and anti-anxiety medicines. It helped but made me feel ... bland? Blah? Not sure how to describe it. It's not for everyone, but I started going to church and somehow I depended on the medicine less and less. Now I don't need it. Occasionally I wonder about going back on it. It's not the easiest thing to talk about with others but the right friend could help 

@yiannipaps12 Hey, I totally understand that feeling of not being able to get out of your head. Have you thought about getting officially diagnosed for your ADHD?