Need someone to talk to/Listen to others

I’ve had on and off depression since I was 12, I’m 18 now. Ij had a miscarriage and I lost my dog the next day. I work 24/7, ij can’t anymore.. I feel so lost and drained, I feel numb to my sadness, I can’t even cry.

i just lay in bed feeling numbed by my sadness and it consumes me. People talk to me but I don’t have the energy to keep a conversation... 

@Krt24notreally I am here if you want to talk to someone. Two years ago, I lost my best friend, a couple days later my ex broke up with me because I was too depressed about my best friend's death. A week later my grandma passed. Ever since then I have had a hard time opening up to people. It gets really lonely and sad not having anyone to go to. 

@Hailee  You took time and energy and effort to at least write post here, u know what that means? Ur not ready to give up, u are willing to fight for better tomorrow, appreciate that, and thank urself. U know what? I can guarantee u that whatever ur mom told u is false! I am 1 person who will right down ur name and remember u every time i look at my journal. Things do get better, life is bitter but still sweet

I feel so depressed. I was diagnosed with depression last year and I used to self harm. It recently just started hitting me very hard again. My family have noticed that I have lost a lot of weight because I never eat anymore. I can’t stop crying. I have no friends and I feel so alone. I don’t have the energy to do anything ever. I also have social anxiety which causes me to not be able to really meet new people or make friends. Right now I just want to die. I feel like I disappoint everyone. 

I need a female to talk to please help 

im just really tired of life. Everyday I wake up and I literally wanna just die end it all. I am like at the lowest part of my life where I can’t and don’t know how to find happiness. I am abusing drugs thinking that it will make me happy but it’s not it makes me miserable and made me unhealthy made me not love myself for who I am. Now since I been using thinking I’m going to be happy when really I’m not is now battling addiction. I am alone I have no one to talk to or turn too. I have asked for help many times and I always either get turned away or laughed at or made a joke out of. I hate how my life is going. I just want my old self back I just want to be happy again. I don’t know what to do anymore I can’t do it alone anymore I give up

I’m 8m pregnant. I just got put on a heart monitor due to stress. I go to bed every night wishing I wouldn’t wake up. I want to self harm or just straight up end it but the only thing that stops me is the little girl growing inside of me. My boyfriend won’t get a job which just leaves my 8.55 an hour paycheck which scares me to take any type of leave because I don’t want my daughter to do with out. We live in a roach infested house with 6 cats. He won’t spray for bugs so I have to which scares me that my daughter will be harmed by it. Also one of the cats poops and throws up all of our room but he won’t help me keep the cat out but in fact brings the cat into our room and he doesn’t clean up the cats poop as I can’t due to being pregnant. In fact none of them get cleaned up after and I can’t anymore. I can’t leave because then I’d be homeless. We live with his dad who is having a heroine addict stay with us who is constantly in the bathroom and I’ve almost wet myself trying to get in there. He’s always having girls come over to have sex with him for drugs and I’m terrified I’m going to lose my daughter over my living conditions. I had a good paying job but was fired for pretty much being pregnant at 7m and no other place would hire me other then family dollar. I’m at a loss and so very depressed and stressed and just plain tired 

@Baker016  Hey as i can understand you are one taught human being, u already answered question why u living, and thats a powerfull and beautiful reason to live for.(having a baby girl is my dream). I know this will sound kind of harsh and unfair but noone can help you but you. But i can help you organize and plan   How to get out of bad situation and become kind of person and a mother u want to be. So please contact me to talk more

@borundanck14 Hey,  you are random stranger but u have no idea how much i can relate to you. I promise you that if u tell me what ur struggling with i will take it serious and give u my honest answer and thought how u can lead ur life, so u become the person u want, ( not the old self you miss, that was in past, you want to become better you, not old you, old you got you where u are now)

want to hear more from you please

@Bre103 Hey Bre, i appreciate that no matter of ur depression and social anxiety you still found strength to post this and here we are, communicating. You are not as weak as you might think. In our life we go out buy stuff and everything comes with manual, you read that manual and follow steps, sounds easy. Unfortunately noone gave us the manual how to use and control our brain. But fortunately it is still possible by hard work and commitment to create that manual for urlsef. I can be that one friend who will help you creating it. Talk to me