Need someone to talk to/Listen to others

Hi, I’m new here am 28 years old. I would just like to talk to someone. I can’t stop crying I feel like I never do anything right for my fiancé. I recently asked him to try to do more dates with just the 2 of us. Today we decided to go on that date, he seemed so unhappy his reason was that he had a pimple 🤦🏻‍♀️ we were there for an hour! We came home he gets mad because he can’t find something! He got mad & kept saying that I loose everything! When he didn’t even check the drawer everything was there! I feel like he’s just finding a reason to pick a fight with me 😩 sometimes I just feel like he’s just not happy anymore 😔 we’ve had our ups & downs I have trust issues with him because of somethings he has done in the past. Recently he said he wanted to spend times with his friends at first I got so anxious because I felt like he was going to do something bad! Then I just told him to keep on trying, for him to go out respecting me of course, but in exchange I asked for dates! Today was our first date in along time, but he made me feel so sad. He looked so bored 😔 I don’t know what to do. 

I’ve always had anxiety and was diagnosed with depression my freshman year of high school but lately I’ve kinda felt numb. Ive had trauma at a young age getting molested by a family member, which definitely blows, but I recently just lost a close friend to suicide. I have a lot of guilt and definitely grief and I’m not sure how to cope. Nobody I talk to truly understands how I feel. Sleepless nights and panic attacks have been happening a lot more. Just need someone to talk to I guess.

Going to be 57 soon. Feel like I'm getting old and out of dreams. Been working restaurant and poultry jobs for most of my life. Though I have degrees in journalism, graphic arts and multimedia. Never got any position there. Always wanted to be a paperback writer, and script writer. On disability now, and uncertain about the future.

I'm scared right now because lately I haven't really been feeling any emotions. Like, I'm always aware of how I SHOULD feel or normally would, but it's like I'm trapped in my own mind without my emotions

I’ve felt like that also like walking zombie … like the room could be full of people talking and you just can’t seem to relate or feel anything your just their but not in a way 

I am feeling all alone, like no one thinks about me. 

I’m sorry you feel that way been there many times your not alone even if y feel like it just take a day at a time even though I know it’s difficult to stay safe ok we’re here for y

@MrWilliams 

Hi,  things will get better after a divorce.  Keep doing something…anything to keep your mind busy.  Go on walks..exercise..ride a bike.  Try to meet new people..please write if you need to talk to someone..

@DavidPyle 

I understand..I have dead dreams also.  I always wanted to live near the beach. But I’m now 60 and living in the city.  But I am trying to find new dreams. I do not want to give up yet.  Yes..it’s depressing.  But I keep moving forward each day expecting to be happy…write me if you need to talk…I feel isolate as well..

@Avasad idk if u will get this but i agree I need someone to talk to as well. i'm marquis i'm from Georgia i'm 19 and i have severe depression and i have never told anyone. I've had depression since i was 9. i grew up getting beat by my father. he was an alcoholic. I've been dealing with this for ever now and today i just had to tell some one and i'm sorry that it is you and even if you don't read this thank you. i turned to drugs at the age of 15. i only did BC i have no one. everyone in my life has left me so i used drug to comfort me. but i soon realized that drugs only helps me escape reality not handle it. i don't know what i need in life but i just feel so empty. i feel like i have no use in this world u know. i was in a relationship when i was 16 for 2 years and then we broke up then she went around the school and told everyone that i raped her which is not true trust me or at least pretend at this point it doesn't matter. then after that my uncle the only real father figure in my life got brain cancer and is slowly dying and all i can do is watch. then a year later my grandma has a heart attack and goes through surgery but gets so doped up that she lost her memory. my life is filled with downs but i'm used to it tbh i no longer cry bc i no longer have any to shed and i give no fucks bc i gave them all away. i just want to give up so bad but my body wont let me no matter what i do. i overdosed on fentanyl (a stronger morphine) and survived somehow and i just sit up all night thinking why i survived. my horrible life would have came to a stop and i would finally be happy for once in my god damn life. and i'm sorry if u don't want to hear this but i'm down to hear Ur side