Need to Vent/Need Some Positive Vibes

Hi everyone my names katie I'm 33 I'm on 15 different medications I have bipolar depression anxiety as well as other medication just 2 days ago I was told I have cancer again for the second time and I'm currently in trauma counseling due to last year having a situation witch has now caused me to be afraid to leave my home I'm scared of being in the car riding on buses its affected me tremendously but the one thing that helped me from feeling this way was ripped from me and now I sit and feel lost and useless all the time I was a teacher for 9 years and it's gone just gone and I dont know how to get it back due to being scared to leave my relationship I dont feel strong enough sorry for complaining so much but I feel like every day why do I have to wake up and go threw this over and over again thanks for letting me vent

I'm frustrated, hurt, etc....I've never been married and have no children. I'll be 50 yrs old in a few months. Most of my friends are married, some going on their 2nd one and no one is interested in me. My friends keep saying, "it's not you..." but what am I to think? I am not one who has unrealistic expectations. I'm not looking for someone who is rich. You get my point. I feel so overlooked. What makes everyone else so special but not me? I feel alone, ignored, unimportant and forgotten. I feel as if God doesn't care about the desires of my heart. It seems like I've been forsaken or not important enough to bless with a good husband. My father is deceased and my mother has Alzheimer's. Most of the people in my family that I was closed to passed away. My friends can't handle me when I'm down so I, too, isolate. I need to cry out to God but I feel like He's not listening or just doesn't care. I'm just....agh!