I really don't feel like living - need support and to talk

@Shreeia.j22 your welcome. I know your pain all to well and it's hard we other don't understand. We need people that prop us up and not bring us down. 

Tonight I will pray for you that you find peace. We all deserve to be happy and love ourselves. 

Okay now, we need to flip this and Get Angry!! This is BS! WE ARE GOOD, DESERVING PEOPLE!! Get Mad!! The life we are in is Letting Us Down!! Yes, it be so easy to Not "Be", to Not face tomorrow! That being Alone, Stuck in our heads SUCKS! NO ONE GIVES A SHUT ABOUT ME! My partner let's me know just how big a Disappointment I am on the regular. I've contemplated Ending it all, thousands of times but Why? I don't have a life ending disease, I have two good feet to stand on. Why are We worth Less, we aren't WORTHLESS! GET ANGRY, THIS ISNT FAIR THAT WE FEEL THIS WAY!! It's Hard & it SUCKS!! Get a Scream Pillow, a Punching bag, tell that ASSHOLE to F Off!! Eat Haagen Daaz & hold on to Anything that Brings You a Tiny Moment of Peace! Just Don't Give IN! It's not giving up, We Can't Give In!!! 

@Chelsea needed that. Thank.you 

I have found meaning and comfort in my wife, pain doctor, and Faith. Depression has pushed me to the edge several times in my life. Hold on if it is only to yourself!

@Tamra1 Just existence, I hear you.  I merely existed 2+ years since my last hospitalization.  Today, I woke up at 4am with a dream that just needed to be shared.  It is the first inspiration in much too long.  I shared on social media and got good feedback.  Now I'm afraid to go to bed because tomorrow could merely be existence again.  One day, what a blessing today was.

Hey everyone don’t worry about my profile picture and Im new to this let me begin on telling u my name first 

my name is maliah ,and I am 18 yrs old,I didn’t graduate because of moving situations and covid I am a girl and through out my whole life I’ve been going through depression and anxiety 😥 I have talked to people but things never work out I’m always sad and I always over think to much and I get overwhelmed to much and mad to much ,and through out my life I was in a rough position going place to place from family to live with them because my mom died when I was little and didn’t really get to know my mom like that and ever since that I been sad shy and didn’t really like talking to people I just felt if I talked to someone they wouldn’t understand the pain I feel and later In the days I was bullied not no more but those memories still hurt and having to be in high school boys lying to u that they love u but they cheat or lie are they aren’t open 

My life has been rough my whole life I moved to vegas with my sis and dad and things started going on at the house and my dads anger is really bad he’s been in the war for three years or four at least so he’s barely been in our life so I really am not close to him but my sister is but now we’re doing fine I moved in with my boyfriend and his mom and sister till we hit 1-8 months already but I feel depressed now because I’m not sure if he understands that I need attention I need to know he really loves me not doing things he shouldn’t but I really do love him and I want us forever but my anxiety is getting to me and depression which started getting me moody and I just get overwhelmed and sad sometimes for no reason or for some reasons 

I just need help on how to deal with depression 

@Maliahcalhoun1 welcome and it will get better. 

I'm so sorry that happened to you. Find a way to get out around people. When I went through the same thing with my husband ten years ago, I went to Alanon for help. Christine

Life is awful sometimes. Hang in there! Sending love, health and hugs. 

I'm in that situation now. My Fiancee and I aren't getting along very well and we are just forced to part ways. It hurts but after 3 years of arguing about it I don't feel guilty anymore. I could have done more but once the truth is revealed to you things get better. The one thing to do right now is think about yourself. It may seem harsh or selfish but you have to take care of number 1. It will be a long process before I can move on again but I need a break from relationships and to get back on my feet. Someday all of you will too.