Need a friend to talk about mental illness

Hi, everyone. I have been going through a lot lately and it feels like I have no one to talk to about all the emotions and feelings I’m dealing with. I really just want someone to talk to and I know there are a lot of other people out there that would also need someone to talk to. If you are interested in exchanging contact info so we can talk and help each other please lmk.

@CathyLarson840 You can always talk to us on here, I hope you're ok. 

All of the above people can feel free to use me as a sounding board. Some of you sound like you had depression much worse than I ever had it. I was in the hospital for 13 times for Mania and other times suicidal ideation.I am hearing that ,many of you have no friends or family to talk to or are in toxic relationships. It is very important to have a good treatment team. For this it means having weekly therapy with a LCSW  and a monthly session with a shrink .But they have to be very good for you. If you do not think they are helpful then move on and find other help. Some people have hard to treat symptoms of depressions. It is treatment resistant depression. With this your Doctor must play around with various medications some of which are not usually used for depression. Some are like Haldol, Seroquel, Latuda, and then you combine them with regular anti-depressants. It make take many tries. I once had a friend who had 50 ECT and it took that many to take away his depression he was that suicidal, I love my treatment team and have not been in the hospital for 7 years now. I feel much better and like the medications I take and I eat right and make it a point to use my treadmill 5 times a week and sleep at least 9 to 10 hours a night. I need a lot of sleep. If any one want to contact me they can at my email missybench88@gmail.com. I am always happy to help. I used to work as a mental health advocate so I have a lot of experience giving advice. Every one take care and see me if you need to.Mmelissa bench in New York

I was hesitant about joining this website but I feel like my depression is getting worse and I figured I’d try this out. I can’t sleep at night anymore and when I do I wake up crying. I hate that it happens because then I wake up my boyfriend and I feel guilty. We went through a miscarriage in December and our baby would have been born this month so it’s killing me lately when I hang out with my niece because all I can think of is how I would have had a little baby like her. I feel like I’m such a burden to everyone around me and try so hard to be the strong one and fix everybody else’s problems just to come home and cry to sleep because I don’t want to bother anyone. I’m not really sure what I expected from this site but this is the first time I’m opening up about all of this.

Sweetheart it sounds as if you are taking care of every one but yourself. You need time to grieve your loss and cry openly. You do not have to hide it. You lost a baby. I did too. It was upsetting. It was years ago but I still remember it. Do you see a therapist. I think you should and maybe consider some medication?  You have my support. My name is Melissa Bench and I live in New York. Follow me here on this site and perhaps we can get you feeling better. You deserve happiness. God bless you.

@MelissaBench thank you it helps just to finally write it all out 

@Abell20 

Please do not give up. Things may seem dark but get yourself some help and medication & counseling.  Once you are stable things will get better as long as you make baby steps. I care about you. You are a wonderful person 

I hate my life. All I can think about is her. And since I can't have her anymore all I can do is wish death upon myself 

@Teashalynn83 @Teashalynn83 I will over spend in depression and mania. During the depression I think it's from anxiety.

I just got out of the hospital and have no real support, my mom has alzheimer's and my family have helped as little as possible.