Going through cancer treatment by yourself alone

I have pancreatic cancer. Diagnosed in 2017 I missed my opperable window. I have been doing chemo and have good results. I have supporters but like you, I feel alone regardless if I have millions of people around me. That cloud. That black cloud will not go away and has taken all hope and ambitions away. I try, I try so hard to stay positive but I wake up with that first thought, I have cancer. Not a good way to start the day. 

@Killrnsideme I know that feeling exactly.  I am trying to remind myself that I can allow this intruder to dampen my day or I can take back control.  I told myself the cancer is going to be there whether I’m in a good mood or bad mood, I can’t let it take more than what it already has.  And that’s something that I not only think about in the morning, but all throughout my day I have to remind myself of that. It helps. God bless!

Thank you. That was inspiring. It helps so much to know others are experiencing the same thoughts I am having. You know, some days I am just able to forget I have cancer I feel so happy. I feel like I once lived before cancer. A complete feeling of freedom. I didn't realize before cancer the little thoughts that get us by and motivated I had taken for granted. It's almost spiritual now recognizing the little things that truely matter the most. Having cancer not only is a bad thing but it does reveal what is truely good if that makes any sense to you. 

@Killrnsideme makes perfect sense.  Everything has a positive side, it’s all in how you choose to look at it.  Those bad days will come, and I’ve also come to realize that I have to allow myself those feelings and to go thru those bad times, Just as long as I don’t spend too much time in them.  :)

I have Adenocarcinoma of the distal esophagus. This is my second cancer in six years. In 2013 I had squamous cell carcinoma of the palette. In 2013 I had my wife to be by my side during the treatment and recovery. She past 12/17 of the flu bug that was going around then, she was 54. I am alone this time around. I have already been through five weeks of radiation and chemo and am now awaiting the surgery to remove part of my esophagus. I have recently been experiencing some severe pain in the sternum area where the radiation was concentrated. This is new as of this last week. I have not had any severe pain since treatment ended and just don't understand what is going on when I should be healing this far out from treatment. Any info would be welcome.

@strataview unfortunately I don't know.  I would definitely give your doctor a call.   God bless.  Kris

Hello, Everyone:

I was diagnosed with colon cancer and 2018.  I also had surgery to remove the cancerous growths in March 2018. I refused the recommended Chemo.  Nevertheless, I have had CT scans every 6 months since that time and scans always came back clean.  

In October, 2019 my scan revealed that cancer had returned; this time on my right lung and a lump developed on the right side of my clavical.  The diagnosis initially was that this was a "new cancer" (throat cancer it was believed to be.)  Upon further tests, including a Pet scan this time, the diagnosis was this was the same cancer which had moved upward to a different part of my body.

I am now in Stage 4 of colon cancer, so I am told, and radical chemo is required -- 3 days with chem permeating my body 24/7, 4 days off, then 3 days on again.  This treatment is continuous for the rest of my life if I elect to subject myself to it.  Yes, I want to live.  But the question to me is do I wish to live out my days relatively healthy and to be  remembered by my family that  way; or do I want to live longer but in a debilitating form and my family subjected to seeing my die slower over a longer period of time?

At this point, I am opting to live without my quality of life reduced to chemo, weight loss, nausea, etc.  I seeking a second opinion but my appointment is not until January 6.  I am experiencing abdominal cramps, loss of appetite, etc.  I can't help but wonder if these symptoms are psychosomatic.  I'd like to hear from others about my situation.  Guess I just need to talk about it with others.  My children are adults living on  the West Coast.  
So I am pretty much on my own here in New England.

I am reaching out now because  I am frightened because I don't know what's happening.  How much time do I have left?  Just want to reach out, that's all.

Hi, I'm going through a recurrence of breast cancer right now and my husband has like checked out. I feel like I'm doing this alone. Has anyone else been through this with a partner? I don't know what to do, I feel like he doesn't care or acknowledge what I'm going through.

@jessiey Hello jessiey, thank you for reviving this discussion. I'm sorry to hear you're feeling alone in treatment, please know you can always find support within our community here on Carenity. Let me tag some other members who can possibly share with you.

Hi everyone, how are you doing? Have you ever felt alone on your journey with cancer? Who or what did you turn to for support? For those of you navigating cancer alone, what helped you to feel supported and strong?
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Take care,
Courtney

Going through the same. I am stage 4 Colon cancer. I was diagnosed in 2014.

I'm still here,trying, it is a scary ride.