Need someone to talk to/Listen to others

Hi all

I'm a stay at home mom of 2 with another on the way. I am miserable. I'm so bored and lonely. My husband works alot and he turns every serious conversation into a joke. My youngest has special needs so we stay home often where it is safe. I don't have any other family and I don't have any friends. My husband's family talks to me at functions sometimes but if I initiate a conversation they straight up ignore me or act like anything I say is so confusing. I volunteer at my kids school and would try to make other mom friends but it never took. I've reached out to old friends only for them to shut down as soon as I say I'm a housewife and really if I did make a friend I wouldn't be able to maintain a friendship. Friends usually want to hang out or do things and if my kids arent in school then theyre with me and it would be too difficult to take my kids. My youngest is a runner and unaware of danger. Can't really invite anyone over either and to be honest I'd rather just have the opportunity to get out of house.

Now onto the boredom. I've been living life like I'm in quarantine for years. Hobbies have become boring, meaningless. It all feels like a massive waste of time. I have lost interest in everything. I don't want to read anymore. If I look at a tv again I fear I may go into a rage and break everything around me. I've tried going outside when I can. I can't tell you how many hours or days I've wasted staring into nothing. Painting, drawing, photography nothing is satisfying. I'm always seeking productive things but as a housewife that's just cooking and cleaning and I just hate it.

I'm not religious. I believe we have one life to experience and at the end that's it. So I want to experience it fully. We do things as a family like trips to the zoo but those are once sometimes twice a year. I've reached my limit. I don't know where to go from here. My husband does want to help but he doesn't know what to do and is always asking me like I know the answer and I've stopped talking to him about it when I realized he has no idea what depression is or what it's like. I know that I may be burnt out and need a break but that's just not going to happen. I constantly look up ways that could help myself and swear everything is cheesy blogs saying make the most of your day and happiness comes from within or make a gratitude journal.  I've turned into a cynical pessimisstic woman. I know that I have more than most but I don't care about comparing my life to others. I don't want someone else's life I just want to enjoy mine. It feels like there is nothing to look forward to. I have no ambitions or goals I want to achieve. My hope is that venting here may relieve me in some way.

Hi!!!! So I’m new to this. Lately I have been feeling down. Like I feel like a loser. Everyone around me is doing good and have things going for them and I feel like I’m not doing anything or like I’m going to amount to anything. I feel like I want to cry and I just wanna know why. Can someone give me some advice please? I don’t talk to anyone because I’m known to be a strong person and/or people don’t listen to me.

I Just want my life back.

@Sammy120 man that’s a. Rotten thing to do to somebody f her u don’t need people in your life like that.

I was diagnosed clinically depressed 8-28-20 I have to wait until 9-15 for my therapy to start until then I cry 5 or more times a day I can’t bring myself to do much more than sit in the shower until the hot water runs out , the only people I can talk to trigger my breakdowns.  I want to feel good again as it is now the only feelings I feel are the negative ones. I just don’t understand how people can just sit and wait with these types of feelings.

I’m so sorry your feeling this way!! I can relate. Do u have a family of ur own?

Why does nobody on this site talk to me maybe I’m doing something wrong I don’t understand I’m here to talk to people no one has talked to me yet

Hello my name is Destiny I am a mom of three I have two angels in heaven and I have a daughter she is 1 I’m here to tell my story I am 19 I thought I may have met the love of my life dates through middle school till this day we are supposed to be getting married but my life has flipped upside down, today me and him got into a argument and he took my daughter away from me and told me I didn’t deserve to be her mother and she’s the only happiness I got Iv been bullied my whole life I had an ex who posted all my photos and had random people message me he made a tinder account of me with my number attached to it I then lost my job, I feel lost alone nobody to talk to… Iv locked myself up I smile when don’t want to I lost my happiness I feel like I’m losing myself everyday I open my eyes I sometimes feel like I don’t belong here, I love my daughter everyone knows and she got snatched by someone I thought who loved me… I don’t love my own self I’m fat stupid ugly I haven’t been out my house in days haven’t had a good shower I haven’t brushed my hair it’s nearly all the way matted I’m trying but I don’t know how much more I can take of this evil world…. Thank you for reading my real story I have a whole lot more but not trying to type a whole book lol… I need help I feel like I’m drowning

@Fred l9 It helps if you tag people using the @ symbol, that way they know if you're talking to them specifically.  How are you doing?

Not so well I’m afraid thank you so much for getting back to me. My life has become one giant nightmare.I’m almost positive I’m heading for a divorce been married for a while with the same woman for 25 years:I’ve been sober for 13 years. Now I find it’s just like when I was drinking I can’t even look at myself in the mirror and I don’t know why.