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@Fred l9 I'm sorry about your marriage, relationships are so hard. But congratulations on your sobriety, that's great you've been doing well with that! Don't be too hard on yourself, relationships are a two-way street.

@jasmine1092 yes this is true it is a 2 way street.i have tried everything to get closer 2 hear but she just pulls Away even further.At one point we had not been sexually active in two years. And now when I need her most she still seems distant even though she knows what I’m going through and that just compounds my depression. I know that’s very personal information and I feel weird telling it to somebody I don’t really know. But talking about it helps me.

@Fred l9 Hey there man we’re kind of in the same boat. My big trigger is my wife of 25 years is on her for certain second emotional affair she won’t even admit it. I am the son of an alcoholic and a benzo addict who quit a 30 year pot habit last November sanity and clarity are two things I know nothing about 

@Jake1976 i’m sorry to hear that that’s rough my parents were also alcoholics both my mother and my father my father actually used to beat my mother one thing I will never do in my life never laid a finger on a woman and I never well I despise anybody who does. Clarity is hard to come by especially with this Covid shit.I’m sorry about your wife my wife is also a big trigger but at some point I have to do what’s best for me and MoveOn

At some point in all of our lives we are going to have to cut our losses and move on it’s inevitable we all have to deal with at least once it’s painful it hurts but time does heal all wounds!!!

One of the biggest lies I was told in my recovery was that life would get better when I got sober that’s a bunch of shit life gets harder you have to deal with life on life‘s terms and you have to do it sober.But that is also all the more reward you get out of knowing that you did it you’re sober I’m not gonna lie I would love to have a drink now and then but I know I can’t let that tape finish playing in my head and I know the end result and where it’s going to take me every time don’t let your mind fool you

To move on is well something all on its own. She will have nothing and she will fight hard to keep from losing her home and “best friend “ who has always been here to pay the bills and cook for her. She is my best friend she is all that I have devoted my life to.  

@Jake1976 have u tried to tell her that.im  sorry u are in that situation it’s hard to deal with on a day to day basis.it sounds like u truly love hear with all of your heat I’m so sorry.maybe give her an alternative.its hard to imagine your wife with a different man I know.but you sound like me a hard working man she will find the grass is not so green on the other side.

I’ve thought back on my life over the past few years and not once have I woken up and just thought “wow, I’m happy” or even just had the feeling. Of course I’m happy that I’m living. I’ve realized that just because I’m living doesn’t mean I’m alive. Just because I’m living doesn’t mean I am happy. I want that so desperately but I feel like my feelings are never heard because I’m 16. Honestly, nobody has ever asked me how I felt or if I was truly ok. I know this says you have to be 18+ but I feel like I’m younger and I’ve already experienced a pain to last a lifetime. You know if I cut myself right now I would put a band-aid on it. But just because I have a bandage doesn’t mean I’ve stopped the pain. The scar won’t just go away. Some scars never heal. So why should I be forced to act like I’m ok if I’ve truly never healed. And I hate when people disregard my feelings because I’m 16. I think I’m quite smart for my age. I speak and act maturely and people comment on it all the time. “Oh you’re so smart!” Or “you’re so mature for your age!” How is it that when I say anything I’m so mature but when I speak on my feelings or beliefs it’s “You’re just a child” and “You don't know what you’re talking about.” So how do I express my feelings? Who can I go to? Nobody. I feel alone in a house of 6 people. I feel like I’m living a narrative that I didn’t right. I want to write my own story because only I know what I feel everyday. Since I’m 16 I’m not allowed to write my own narrative ( let others tell it) which is completely unfair to me.

Hi i’m new to this website i just want to say something just to let it out i’m not really expecting comments back but it’d be nice if someone commented back:) I’m very young and I feel like a burden because I feel like my family has been paying a lot of money for anxiety and depression groups for the past couple years. I love my family more than anything and it hurts seeing them trying to afford something for me. I just feel like a burden to everyone I meet and know, it’s not good for me.