I really don't feel like living - need support and to talk

@Rileyhark1 

Hi…Please find someone you can talk to.   Staying locked in your room is not good.  You are constantly listening to your NEGATIVE self talk. You cannot HEAL yourself.  Find a teacher, friend, family member, school counselor or somebody.  We all need someone to support to listen to us.   I suffered depression last year. I too just stayed in bed and cried.  But I forced myself to talk to someone.   It really helps.  A therapist would be best.   Keep looking till you find a therapist that you can relate to.  Please get some help…

I just feel distant from everyone anymore. I've ended up overdosing twice and I never thought I'd have the "courage" to do that. It's just an impulse thing. Like no one really cares so why not. It's not that I crave death, it's that I feel like others are better off without me.

@sahardi Your life is precious, even through difficult times.  Try to focus on loving yourself and pay no attention to what others say.  I used to be too sensitive in the past, now I am not.  In addition focus on what your strengths are and only try to be around people who care and respect you for you.  If you need to vent, I am here.

So I am new to this but I’ve been in a relationship for 7 years even have a child together but since this last year my partner has been making me feel really bad about myself and I think to myself I’m so stupid for putting up with it but I still love this person like why? I’m starting to hate myself more and more everyday 

No one has the right to put you down and make you feel bad about yourself especially your partner.  You and your partner may want to try counseling. You mention you have a child, it is important to get along together and be a positive influence for your child.

I need help myself. I completely know how you feel im alone. 56 yo. My kids are all gone as of next week. Last one leaving fir college. I am crying nonstop. I have no family or friends. Im only in this state bc i had my kids here but then divorced. I stayed (im from Detroit) in IL to raise them where they are familiar. But I never made friends. Last relationship 6 yrs. Ago. I havent worked for a few years getting unemployment. One of my sons split the rent but hes leaving. He left yesterday to live with his gf. My 18yo off to college next week. I will be alone. I cant go back to my home state bc my kids are still in this state and will visit. But I am really really not empty nesting well. I cant stop crying. Im filled with dread and fear. I feel like a total loser. Im thinking of going to get liquor but afraid it will get me really depressed. I havent slept. Im having panic attacks. I understand your turmoil! Can someone talk to me? Thanks. Sorry

Hi, I'm sorry to be late to this discussion. I went though the same thing. The pain is unbearably, it makes you think you are crazy because doctors are clueless, current medical equipment is outdated and insufficient The cherry on top is it feels like no one cares. Well, I do!!! Please feel free to chat me privately if need any time. That goes to anyone, I may not respond right away but I'll get there. I've been doing some "All Natural" research, experiments to see what helps with my issues. I'd love to share!

I little about myself. I am a 48 year old lupus survivor. I was diagnosis in 2016 but I'm pretty sure I suffered from it long before diagnosis. My new set of doctors (there have been many) are helpful but unfortunately, as clueless as I am about my symptoms and how to relieve them, but we're working together that's the important part. I cant express the importance of a good medical "team".  I emphasis team because I think we can all agree one doctor or one medical field, doesn't cut it. We need a medical team that works together to help us with all our symptoms and issues.

Sorry, if I come off aggressive, I'm just very passionate about this issue and know how it feels to be lost in the pain, not knowing and what feels like no "one is listening or cares". It hurts, more than I can express in this post!

Remember everyone's symptoms are soooo different its hard to pin-point. Its almost like a full time job :/  Doctors don't live in your body, so they have no clue! Be patient with them.

Hang in there!!! We love you!

 

Chi

 

 

@Sbeth123 I cannot imagine as to what you are going through.  I have no children but I did have a large family and most of them passed away.  Even close friends.  Currently I have a few health conditions.  What I do to keep my mind active is to take courses in Medical Coding & Billing so I can work at home.  I have met some nice people who also are taking the course.  Another thing I do is I belong to a church.  I have to attend services online, but I have met a lot of nice people and making new friends.  I suggest to find activities and you can join many clubs that are 50+.  I hope this helps.  I keep you in my prayers.

 

I don't think I can go on like this. I've lost freinds and family. All I have is my daughter who really looks up to me, but this heart aches just don't seem to quiet down for me to find the strength. 

I've lived 8m this hell since I w as 13 .always thought once I was an adult it would get bett er. But no bbn it just gets worse husband dies after 5 yes if hell gotvto mention raising my kids with an alcoho father and myself hooked onmeth what damn chance did they ever have then my daughter list our first grandson at 5 weeks she1aa right out of high school then afte r my husband dues my daughter un a car wreck paralyzed at 30 husband deported her left to cause 1 girls on her own with my help .whe n does life ever get better? All by myself for almost 8 yea ni bfinky jerk that want sex .I cant stand life anymore .I'd of killed myself years ago if I didnt have kids and grandkids f7ck this world