I really don't feel like living - need support and to talk

@2ndchance I feel the exact same way! My life seems pointless and I feel worthless everyday. The only reason I do have to live is my son. But I fear that my mental illness is emotionally damaging him. Why can’t I just be happy?!

@Dcass22 all of this!

@2ndchance if you ever need to talk or just want someone to listen you can hit up my inbox.

@Sadgirl84 there's so many reasons for your questions. Could be a chemical imbalance. Could be trauma. Could be overwhelmed with everything. I only take meds to take the edge off which enables me to go to therapy and work through my issues without jumping off a cliff. There are ways to feel better I promise. Just have to find what works for you. I've been in the system for mental health for almost 30 years and have learned a lot but I still get caught up in depression phases. Just can't help it if you're clinical but if you have some tools you can use them to make it not feel so bad. If you want to talk we are here or if you want to keep it private you can always hit up one of our inboxes.

Best of wishes

I have so much in common with most of you. Tamaram, I was married @18,had 1st child @20. My husband had a terrible upbringing and was not like anyone else I ever met. When I met him, my instinct was to"fix" him and make his life better...perfect even.So I gave my life away. Turns out he was a narcissist. We had 2 more kids. When I got pregnant the 4th time,I decided to not have that baby. (I feel guilt and remorse over that every day..)Like you, I am on numerous meds for years and years.Have done therapy and try to do it via phone since covid. Useless.I have admitted myself to the phsch ward 3 times as a last effort to stay alive. I would be happy to live there. Something about having my time planned out into sections for me. I was always so depressed to get home. He was never happy ,no matter what I did, He was an extremely handsome man and the ladies were all over him, he cheated and lied.Broke my heart. One of my children is an option addict, and he says he loves me one day and that he hates me(for ruining his life) the next. My kids are all adults now and the other 2 are wonderful people,hard workers,just good people. I know I am talking too much and it's because I want you to know you are not alone, I am also bi polar. . I was going to end it , but lost the nerve,so I called a helpline. I was much better in hosp.w/meds.by this time my husband was dead. I lived alone w/agoraphobia. My daughter came and moved me in w/ her and her husband.. that's where I am now, not going out feeling like I am useless.You and I need to socialize, hard as it may be.. We need to be around other people and get involved in a hobby or a job or something...but how to find what wd work for us...??

.I hope you get in touch w/me. We cd maybe help each other. God Bless. I will keep you in prayer.

I am very unhealthy, doctors say due to stress. (My upbringing was abusive in everyway) So I guess you cd say I have been under stress as long as I can remember. Hence,anxiety and depression.. Bad health. I have ulcerative colitis and had to have an illeostomy. I find it extremely hard to live with.

Feel better. I pray for us both.

Hello,

This is something I wrote when I was going thru severe depression with my illness. I used my personal experiences along with what I learned in therapy to find a new way of living that keeps me both happy and healthy.

It may not stay up long since it has a price, but if you send me a private email, I'd be glad to send you a copy for free. Try Reading ...

New Human

Hi. Life not worth living?? There are many support systems available!!! I live in MN. After mom or dad died, I called The Warm Line. A listening ear can help. We also have what is called COPE. Think it's a step below in patient treatment. Never called them. If I become unwilling to live 1 more day, I check myself into psych ward. No, not fun places at all!!! Scary, in fact. I now have young nephew, who I will not abandon. Don't want him saying aunt Peggy killed herself. Yes, life is painful. No one promised us an easy go. Hope this helps.

I feel this every day and it just seems like each day it gets harder and harder to carry on. Life is throwing so much at us, you, right now and I'm getting weighed down.